Then they said they’d come to meet us at the parking lot at Brio. The Richmond Police just said they were at our house and nothing more. We were at Brio Tuscan Grille when my husband got the call on his cell phone from the police on June 5, 2015. Then I felt as if a weight had been lifted. When I made the list around February of 2015, it did provide some relief. Sort of like if you carry an umbrella, it won’t rain. The purpose of this “list” was to make it so I could put it out of my mind. Number three was to ask Mary Jo if we could have the memorial service at Grace & Holy Trinity. Number two was to call Martha, my friend for the last 40+ years. That list you ask? Number one was to call family. That wish was that he wouldn’t die between moving out of my old home and into my new one. Because losing hope is just about the most devastating feeling of all. But once they came to me often, I had to do something. So how did I live with this? Of course, I talked myself out of them. Some of you might think this would prepare me for his death. Many of my friends heard me say that I didn’t think Charles would make it. When they became more intense premonitions they started feeling more real.
And while I’m having this conversation with a teacher, I hear in my head, “Charles is going to die.” Then I had this vague uneasy feeling that I tried to push away. I had this awful undefined moment of fear and I can even remember where I was standing when I had the first one. Pre-premonitions? They were very fuzzy and foggy and I simply couldn’t see Charles being an adult.
PREMONITIONS OF DEATH COME TRUE FULL
Prior to the full blown premonition, I had flashes about him that were unnerving and disturbing but not really very clear from about 5th grade on. The premonition about Charles dying started stalking me in January of 2014. My mom has always called me the “witch”– but not in a mean way. Often my premonitions are mundane enough–like I am going to win a prize or a friend is going to have a flat tire. I’ve actually had only three death premonitions and one of those was Charles. Usually not a death although those are the ones I remember the most.
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